still sitting here

well still feeling hurt, but not AS bad.. I guess.. lol

physcial therapy tomorrow.. and work today..

blah

still staying positive

things are ALL go for once I am better!

back to basics..

I decided to lower all my weights on most of my movements, some even 40-50% what I usually do.. to fix form issues and make sure things work out..for instance.. I could squat 225 for 5 ATG, and lowering it down to 115lbs, working on fixing form, keeping the knees out and keeping my hams/glutes flexed and exploding up... not going quite as deep, but I didn't feel it as much in my knees as I used to.. and my quads actually had a decent pump soo.. I am going to keep experimenting with different squat speeds/bar placements.. then slowly start upping weight, even if its 5lbs a week.., getting my body used to firing with all the muscles then the weight will get heavy soon enough.

Here is my new leg workout, I can't wait to start growing!

BB Squats: 3x5-8
BB Front Squats: 2x6-10
SLDL: 3x5-6
Leg Press: 2x8-12
Lying Leg Curl DC Styleish: 3 rest pause sets, rep range is 15-20
Calves: 1 set of 15 reps * hold at bottom for 5 sec each rep*, then 1 set to 20, then last rep hold contraction for 20-30 seconds

-various stretches..

LETS BRING ON THE OFFSEASON.. NPC HERE I FUCKING COME

soo

had more PT today, still a little sore.

Worked on my form on chest and back, and tomorrow morning I plan on doing that with legs.. changing a few form stances up to see which doesn't bother me..

chest is COMPLETELY torn up, still sore as hell, can barely touch it LOL and my back is feeling it as well.. which means come tomorrow for legs I won't be looking forward to friday ;) haha

Tried to work things out with my ex today but it seems like things aren't completely working right now.. hopefully soon..

Still working on finishing touches for my off season, can't wait to get big.

back

Had another PT session and did some back today which didn't feel to bad...

still feels bad mostly because I don't have a set plan.. so most of my sets are either to heavy or to light so I don't have that "drive" so to speak to train because my goals aren't 100% do-able at the moment.. PT seems to not be going so bad at the moment.. maybe things are looking up for me? hopefully..

started to somewhat work things out with my ex.. kind of hoping we do work things out.. despite the differences we've had and this fight, really feel like we need to be adults and work things out.. wouldn't mind spending my life with her..

thats all for today!

pullovers
reverse pulldowns
Hammer high rows
bb rows
1 arm cable low rows

Again..

Have strayed away from here it seems the past few days.. again.. will start getting back to posting updates daily soon..

Situation is still not as good as I'd want it to be..

shoulder and knee still hurt... but last night at the gym I pretty much pretended that I didn't have any injuries and still lifted as if I was fine, which was OK till I got to more compound movements.. side note.. I almost perfected my form on cross overs LOL

Here is how it went down:

Cable X
Hammer Incline
DB Incline
Machine Press
Machine Laterals
Rope Face Pulls
Cable Laterals

pretty much was it, did 5 min LI and some stretches before

hopeing this is all over soon

over all goal:

IFBB Pro competing in the 202 classes

the words "can't" are not going to be in my vocabulary with ANYTHING any more, this is for real this time.

blah

still feeling crappy.. dealing with stupid stuff from the other day.. still can't get over the fact of what she did and that it happened.. it really is not real to me, hopefully soon I will wake up from this bad dream..

Training wise things are going pretty crappy again, still doing physical therapy, but thought I would go somewhat heavier last night and ended up tweaking my shoulder.. when is my break?

eh anyway.. my goal is to be a top NPC competitor.. and an IFBB pro, realistically I would love to compete in the 202 class.. I can see myself sitting there nicely.. once these injuries are healed, my life is going towards that..

despite how I feel, my drive to get to that goal is not going to be stopped.. hopefully soon I am healed up both physically and emotionally..

make up[

havent made a post in a while, been busy..

got my heart broken a few days ago and still dealing with it..

injury wise, on and off. been using tigerbalm and stretching,s eems to help a bit..

today I lifted with my friend Eric and did a modified DC training..

still partial to volume training!